Monday, April 25, 2011

Are you there Dad, it's me, Lili?...

I'm not sure what to say.  I feel like I should right a blog, but don't feel like there's much of a point now since Dad's gone.

I guess the most important thing to let you all know is that we are all hanging in there.  I know so many people have offered help, want to do something to help or just want to make sure I'm okay, and I appreciate that.  I really do.  But I have no idea what could help me right this second.  Nothing can replace the gaping hole I have in my heart, in my life right now.  I can't even call my Dad.  No matter how far away he's been in the past, we've never gone more than a day or two without talking.  So, best I can do is try to rest my exhausted head on my couch.  Please don't take it personally if I don't: A)  Answer my phone, including text messages, B) Respond to your emails, or C) Want you to come over.

I'm having a hard time trying to talk to people.  I know most have a hard time figuring out what to say to me, but "How are you?" will most likely net you an explosion.  I'm terrible!  I'm sure it will get easier, but right now, I'm just not doing so well.

I guess that's it. 



  1. keep on staying strong, lilibean! so many people love and care for you just as they have for your dad. if you need us, we're here. if you need space, we can make sure you get that, too.
    but if it's a big ol' glass of wine and an insane friend to scream at the sky with, you can definitely call me. love you, lady.

  2. Do whatever you need to do. Couch & cookies. Bad TV & Zeke slobbers. Booting Colin from the man-cave and taking it over... Whatever YOU need. I'll do anything I can for you. Love you tons, my dear friend.

  3. Dear Lili,

    Thanks for blogging. Here's an idea---put those other two books on the couch before you plunk your head down on the couch next time. I bet the books will help you some, even if just to let you know that you're not alone in your feelings. Grief is grief, no matter who the person. Grief is definitely not fun. But trust me, the grief does end. And sometimes grief has a creative, appreciative side. Like, for instance, you and this blog. :-)

    Love & Hugs,

  4. Dear Lili,
    So nice that we had that evening in the front room listening to the Mamas and the Papas. Its forever etched into my memory as a joyful time.


  5. Take care of yourself. Get away somewhere. Maybe France???? :)

    Love ya, Trisha

  6. Consider yourself hugged. I am right across the street if you need me. Love you Liz M