Friday, April 29, 2011
So, Dad just DIED. And I'm still here, without & lost...
I've tried (well, sort of) to go to work. That didn't work either...My staff has become so knowledgeable and responsible that I was left trying to figure out PR & Marketing stuff...Not good right now.
My DAD was the only person in my life I rarely fought with. Even through dissappointment that he had at times with me, he never closed me out, there was always advise to follow. I walk on eggshells with much (not all, but many) of the rest of my family that I'm left feeling really rejected. EDIT: My brother has some "closeness" issues...I shouldn't make all the rest of the family wonder who I'm talking about. I wish that I was closer with my mom, but judgement usually gets in the way. But, I suppose that's what happens when you put all of your eggs in one basket-my dad's. I never imagined I would be left alone. Yes, I have friends and thanks to them for putting up with me and being my friend, but where am I without my Dad, my business partner, advisor, BEST FRIEND? Where am I? (Retorical, no need to answer).
I miss him more than my heart can ever express. Day 8 of no talking. Where is my daddy?